Okay, first things first, I guess.
For the past week, I've been really busy. Like really busy.
School work.
It's not cause I've been fooling around, but the teachers have assigned SO. MUCH.
It really stressed me out.
And I may be a hardcore procrastinator,
But I still really care about my grades.
School pretty much stresses me out.
Like everything about it is just ughhh.
Almost everyone is starting to either make me mad or sad.
And I'm really afraid of relapsing.
Or maybe doing something worse.
I was lucky not to relapse when I was breaking down on Monday,
But now it feels pretty likely that I might.
Work is getting too much because I'm dumb.
Internships are hard to find because of my social anxiety.
My friends don't listen to me because I probably annoy them and they probably secretly hate me.
Even being online is pissing me off because my battery has deteriorated so much
And I'm losing all of my work when it randomly shuts down.
Which includes drawings and writings.
I'm really tired of pretty much a lot.
My friend cut her whole left arm and almost commit suicide last week,
I'm supposed to be there to support her.
Another friend was freaking out about a test that she really wanted to pass.
I offered to help her study when she was breaking down.
I'm trying to help out my friends, but it feels like I can't even help myself.
I'm just really done.
I really hope that things get better.
Because I'm at my limit.
I feel super low of myself.
Like I'm a terrible friend to the rest of my friends.
Like the dumbest student in my grade.
Like no one even cares to even listen.
So yeah.
I'm gonna try really hard not to cry and relapse.
I hope you didn't read all this.
If you did, thanks.
If you didn't, that's okay.
Be cool, guys. See you later.